Off to work

Life after being laid off is an emotional rollercoaster. Then there is job-hunting which is another emotional rollercoaster. My last job afforded me to work part-time and flexible hours. The job I was just offered is full-time. I have other job offers as well to weigh out. In any case, I am extremely blessed to have the options that I do.

Here I am faced with the choice that so many moms and dads face. Is the money worth it? Should my career wait until the kids are older? How can I make every moment with my kids count so they know how much I love them and how proud I am to be their mom? How will Daddy and I lead our family through the next round of changes once we make our choices?

Right now I am both elated and a little frightened at what the coming weeks will bring. (That's the way it is on the rollercoaster of life.) In a way I dread working full-time because I've always had a weekday with Samantha and Sofia since they were born. I am already grieving that and wondering if it will somehow hurt my kids not to have that. Daddy will be traveling a bit again soon and I will be managing a new job and the girls on my own.

I write this because someday when my kids read this I want them to know how precious the time was and deciding to work part-time was the easiest decision I have ever made. They had the best of both worlds at daycare, preschool and playgroups with me. We are a family. We drive each other nuts and I cherish every minute of it because life is too short to wallow in negativity. I am filled with gratitude about the family that we are and the support we give to each other.

I love both of you so much!