Sometimes I struggle with all the roles I live, but it truly is a wonderful life.
I'm a mother, wife, friend, volunteer, full-time employee among other things. I try to take care of myself to avoid feeling drained, but consecutive nights of not enough sleep and some overtime at the office are just this week's extras. I'm trying to set an example of a "strong confident woman" for my daughters by having that attitude. But, I'm not perfect. The example is reality, I am a flawed woman who still feels insecure at times. Today was one of those times. It is hard, but the rewards of my life far outweigh the work. The kids I work with at Sam's school (including Samantha) all smile when I walk in and even give me hugs! I'm valued at work, called by my friends in good times and bad and loved more than I ever believed possible by my wonderful husband. I love my family and I am loved by them. What more is there?
I still have dreams I haven't fulfilled like traveling the world, getting a master's degree and volunteering more. The truth is I won't get to do everything I want to do. That fact is why I work so hard to do all I do today. I want to do and learn as much as I can while I'm here, but I have to pace myself. I have hopes of showing our girls the world's different cultures and belonging to a community beyond family. I'm trying to teach them to find their own strength and use it.
My life before I was married seems so long ago. I was 20 when I first met Daddy. From the first meeting, I knew he was special. His dark eyes showed kindness and humor. Our story is full of twists and turns which make it
extraordinary and precious. I chose him and he chose me. And here we are, blessed and full of determination to keep going.